Remember the time you called me immature because I got mad that you never offered to pay?  You guessed it, I fucked someone else that night (who paid for the motel room by the way).

Remember that time you got mad at me because I didn't want to go away on vacation with you and made a scene?  Yup, I fucked that columbian girl you hated the very next day.

Remember that time that I forgot my wallet and you claimed I did it on purpose?  What a coincidence, I found it the very next day and went out with that girl you hate (we had sex...i didn't use a condom)

Remember that time that you chose to ignore my phone calls because you were mad at me?  Well, guess who texted me that day, the girl I fucked while you were ignoring me.

The problem is is that the list goes on and on.  I could give you reasons why and when I cheated on you.  At the end of the day, I cheated on you because you were a shitty person to be with.  I stay with you though because I hang out down in your area and you are a hot commodity down there so I figure fuck it, I'm gonna be down there so I might as well roll around with a nice piece of ass.

Love,

Your cheating spouse (the person that looks you in the eyes and claims he only has eyes for you)

and i need to pick a nice sex toy to use as a surprise for one of the characters.

xx

i need to get back into the habit of writing. and i need to search for a publisher for some of my hot sex short stories.

So as you can plainly see, I cut myself. Not fun, not proud.  I haven't cut myself cooking in fuckin years.  I was pissed.

So besides cutting my finners, some interesting things have developed since I was hear last. One being my trip to the states a couple weeks ago. I'll get into that at a later time. I also am a proud owner of a set of lock picks...video and pics will come later.

My main reason for posting today is to discuss the absoulute disgrace I seen on television the other night. In the footsteps of Flavor Flav, Teila Tequila, and those reality game shows for true love, friendship and the pursuit (thanks Jer) of happiness comes, and I hope your sitting for this one, "Paris Hilton's MY NEW FUCKIN BFF".  FUCK OFF. Has this thing really pissed off Hollywood and the socialites enough that she has to go onto television to find a friend? And to make it that much sweeter, IT'S ON FUCKIN MTV!!!

Come on Paris. Really, has the trust fund really dried up? Can you not pay off a couple people to pretend to be your friends? Anything? I mean, what did you do to have to go to MTV to find friends? Hell, even Flava Flav went to VH1 to find "true love".

I mean, I don't want to go on a rant here (Dennis Miller, I love thee), but I mean are our lives really this boring now that we have to watch has-been's, use-to-be's and never-will-be's find love, friendship, have their hearts broken, tell people there not good enough for them, cannot be their friends and so on? Hell, they're "celebs" for christ sakes. To get through their entourage is a lot harder then possibly breaking into Fort Knox, as old as that saying is. I see this as another attempt at making these people feel better about their shallow lives, especially the over night phenomenon known as Paris Hilton. What have you done? Your grandfather was a hotel mogul. You have been in a few shitty movies, "wrote" a book, made a shitty album, and FUCKED SOME GUY AND TAPED IT. If that's how to make it in this world, I'll take it up the ass. Hell, I'll make a game out of it.

Look, I realize this is not going to do anything. I'm some greasy dork sitting at home, bitching at the fact that people with little to no talent are getting famous for fuck all. However, people of the world, I have a favor to ask. If you want to watch people making an ass out of themselves, go outside. Go people watching. Now, before you get arrested in whatever city your in for peering into someone's windows, this is what I mean when I say people watching. Go to a park, a mall, any outdoor place. Grab your favorite hot or cold drink (mine is coffee), find a  comfortable bench, and just watch the people walk by, playing, skateboarding, roller blading. Not only will you get the fresh air and exercise you so need, but for you older people who don't like change, you may learn something. Hell, it's really all the reality you need.

Pay it forward......till next time

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This girl in Russia killed her friend with tweezers. FUCKING TWEEZERS!!! You now realise why I am so disturbed. A girl stabbed her friend over 100 times with tweezers after her friend made a remark about her looks, which she found offensive. Her "best friend" said she was ugly and would never find a boyfriend. If I had heard this being said to someone in public I would probably laugh at them, but she stabbed her! Obviously I wouldn't be laughing anymore...

What's worse is that the psycho stabber then fled the scene, leaving her friend lying on the ground bleeding to her eventual death. The girl could've been saved if help was called. Fucking fucking psycho!

I think it creeps me out so much that this happened because the friend must've been so mentally unstable, to stab somone 100 times would take time. Sure they'd be fast little stabs, it wouldn't be tiring to lunge a light pair of tweezers at someone, but 100 times? That would've at least taken a minute to a minute and a half. That is a really long time to be stabbing someone. A stab is usually just WHAM! in out gone. But 90 seconds? No doubt the victim would've tried to fight back, no ones going to just let themselves be stabbed, which is probably why the attacker kept going at it, so that SHE wouldn't get killed or something. But once the victim was overpowered she would've been on the ground or something, and she could've easily stopped or something, without having to think about her safety. But she would've have to have kept stabbing, because you're not going to get a lot of stabs in while fighting, you'd be too busy protecting yourself and using other means of attacking them, like punching. So once she had beaten her friend she would've had to have kept stabbing her.

The even worse thing is that shes only facing 10 years jail. 10 years! She just fucking killed someone!!

Creepy, fucked up, psycho maniac killer Russian bitch.

As the economy worsens and the $700 billion bailout plan is tossed in the shitter, the top government officials are now realizing that we are kind of screwed. Maybe if these heads of the state took their fucking heads out of their god damned asses they would have been able to see what some American's and all the rest of the world sees. We are deteriorating. How many banks and institutes have vanished? Lehman- gone! Wachovia- gone! WaMu- Gone! WTF?! There is no Wall Street anymore. People are asking if we will have another stock market crash. This is it folks, it's here! Get used to eating Ramen noodles and saltines. Gas and food prices continue to grow and nobody cares that you are making minimum wage. Your money aint gonna buy much! We are already in a depression. Look around!! Are we that stupid? Do you know who to blame? I do! Back in 2000 and 2004 when you smart ass republicans stepped inside those booths and thought "Gee, Bush seems like a good choice...de de de!!" that was the beginning of the end! We are broke because we have funded a POINTLESS WAR. I want all of you that voted for Bush and continue til this very day wondering why your money is not worth shit, to look in the mirror and with a big smile say to yourself "YOU did this, thanks for Fucking America!" Feel free to pat yourself on the back and punch yourself in the face or genitals while you are at it. And what does our president think of this whole cluster fuck?? Just look at the picture above!

On the bright side, David Rees of the ever-brilliant mnftiu.cc is going to be able to say the words "I told you so" about 289239023 billion times before breakfast, but in his trademark snarky, sarcastic, irony-laden way. His soothingly dry blog posts, each rendering tolerable the subject of the world economic situation going from "totally fucked" to "reamed with a fourteen foot pole, by a fourteen foot tall Pole" , help distract me from the knowledge that EVERYONE'S FUCKING FUCKED. It really must have been a tough choice in that chamber, between "being a sleazy cunt, the economy's fucked" and "not being a sleazy cunt, the economy's still fucked, and Wall Street will tear you a new face for not funding their bullshit some more". Really. I couldn't have made that choice. With a straight face.

Well, here's an investment vehicle I might start taking seriously soon. Vintage single malt whiskies. Market goes up, I profit. Market goes down, I'm drunk. Win-win.

Back to reality, if the worst comes to worst and there's a run on HSBC*, it'll be hilarious watching everyone come down without a cheque book and ID and get turned away while we drink champagne and laugh**. Funniest bank run ever - one that lasts about 5 minutes and ends in a vague sense of disappointment for all concerned, not unlike sex with your mum.

* Which won't happen, because HSBC is very strong at the moment. If you're at all concerned about the safety of investing in the world's largest corporation, you're a dunce and don't deserve money. You deserve to barter for your food and shelter with mossy twigs.
** Which also won't happen, because finance and alcohol don't go well together. You can insert a joke about Scotland here if you like.

"In a stunning vote that shocked the capital and worldwide markets, the House on Monday defeated a $700 billion emergency rescue for the nation's financial system, ignoring urgent warnings from President Bush and congressional leaders of both parties that the economy could nosedive without it.

Stocks plummeted on Wall Street even before the 228-205 vote to reject the bill was officially announced on the House floor.

As a digital screen in the House chamber recorded a cascade of "no" votes against the bailout, Democratic Rep. Joe Crowley of New York shouted news of the falling Dow Jones industrials. "Six hundred points!" he yelled, jabbing his thumb downward. The decline was about 650 points shortly before the close of the trading day.

Bush and a host of leading congressional figures had implored the lawmakers to pass the legislation despite howls of protest from their constituents back home. Not enough members were willing to take the political risk just five weeks before an election.

"No" votes came from both the Democratic and Republican sides of the aisle. More than two-thirds of Republicans and 40 percent of Democrats opposed the bill."

theres alot of people in  & the stock market I dont trust with six dollars to run and get me a pinkberry.....seven hundered bazillion trillion dollars though?

fucccccccck.

p.s. - i think its the perfect time..........activate that large haldron collider now.

And I got my first oceanography exam back in which I got a B (not bad...not bad at all).  And...I have to go on a field trip tonight with my oceanography class.  We are going on a boat with scientists on a lake to watch them take water samples.  And ask them questions.  Can't you tell I am just jumping up and down and peeing myself in excitement?

- Beckie

  So here it is 9/30, I got lucky in that I placed this title in the wee morning hours of 9/29 so that later in the day when I my tired ass remember that I was to update this post, I thought. "great yet another day has past and no blog entry!", when in fact I got lucky and realized that today that earlier when I went to bed it was the 30th and after several hours sleep, I'll get up and it will still be the 30th and if I'm diligent <cough><cough> I'll still be able to get the post in by the 30th...are you getting this, are you still following me?? Well that's good because I've lost myself a few lines back.  Hehehe.

   ** Off Topic comment - Sweet, Autosave is my friend!! My browser locked up while this posting was saving. I wrote everything down again but I just saw a comment that there was an autosave version. Yeah I don't have to retype everything back in. Ok now back to the reason why no postings. **

  So why didn’t I keep up with the Blog this week, well I had a doctor appointment in Phoenix on the 24th (that was Wednesday). I don't get to Phoenix that often so I always make the most of it because I don't have a car. So if I didn't call for a taxi ride (Care Directions (http://www.aaaphx.org/HIV+CARE+DIRECTIONS ) covers the cost of a taxi ride to and from Gilbert to the VA) But you have to call a day in advance, easy right! Well dummy here doesn't always do that. So if I forget then I get to take the bus into Phoenix (Phx from now on). It takes 3 buses and 3 hours to get to the VA on 650 E. Indian School Road. I don't mind much as my route take me through ASU and Mmm Mmm those young hot things are so good to glance and a daydream but so are the other men that come and go on the bus. I do especially like Loloma Station and the interesting dance of the "I'm available for you to take me home for (now I'm guessing here) said price or free (but I'll rip you off blind and take anything in your house that isn't nailed down)." Now mind you the guys that are out on this walk are rather cute, but I just get the "Danger Will Robinson, Danger" from some of them and "You too damn much and I don't pay for sex (ok, so I did once, it was on accident and I prefer to forget that rather odd experience). Any way, I was able to take a taxi up to the VA. Well I lined up visiting my friends that I always try to visit when I go to Phx.

  I spent Wednesday night there, spending the night is always fun, sometimes there are extra guests and sometimes not, it make for hot fun either way <drool> <pant> <pant> and I just really wasn't in the mood to come home on (read ride the bus for 3 hours), so I lingered. My friend said it would be cool if I stayed another night but that I'd have to leave early because they were heading out to the airport to fly to San Francisco for the weekend. Those luck dogs were going to Folsom fair on Sunday but got to town on Friday. I just can't wait to hear what interesting adventures they got into or found <G>. His roommate L. was coming home later that day (Mmm thoughts ran through my head). Was nice just to hang out and watch TV and help out his roommate with a task and getting his mail setup so that he could send out email. L. did show up later that night and I stayed up and chatted with him. I had ulterior motives on my mind. I wanted to get fucked! Well we had some flip flop fucking hot fun!! It was well worth sticking around for! I love that place!! So off I went early in the a.m. I tried to find another buddy, but was tired and after a bit just wanted to go home and sleep. I got home Friday afternoon and actually rolled home the two miles from the bus stop. I was timing myself to see how fast I could roll the miles in and surprising I rolled a 14:40 mins for 1st miles and 14:30 for 2nd mile. Not bad for not having the faster "travel feet" as I call them. You see I'm in a wheelchair and those are the foot rests that I don't always take with me. But I've now learned that it is best to have my feet rests with me as I never know where I might be rolling to.

  The weekend I was still sleeping and recovering from my fun "weekend" in the middle of the week. I still had a happy smile plastered on my face, I don't get fucked that often. We won't go into the detail of why that doesn't happen that often. 

  So I hope this makes sense, as it is 4 a.m. and I'm really tired now after my 3 hour workout. Take care and I'll read over it tomorrow. Enjoy.

However, this is the response we got back.

Unfortunately we require a 7-day notice for cancellations as specified in the terms of service which is agreed upon whilst ordering, it is not possible to cancel the server for this billing period and the overdue invoice must be paid ASAP to avoid account suspension.

Fantastic. So, simply enough, we were told very kindly that we were fucked, unless we could pony up $500. Well, surprise surprise, we couldn't. So now all of the boxes are offline, and we can't access any of them. That means Ausphreak, Phreakfiles, and all relevant websites are offline too. Keep this site bookmarked as it is hosted by Wordpress, and we'll keep you updated as we know more.

step one: pick my flights....

Step two: i click book..... and i get...

It's a fucking con. I bet there aren't any flights left by the time i can get on the site.... 

So i thought, well maybe its just the net, ill call them on the number they give...

The line is dead. The official number, which costs £1 a minute, is dead. What the hell is that all about. I hope the get their act together, because thats been the last few times i've tried to use ryanair and its been shit.

"Abia astept" sa vad ce spot-uri mai ies pentru Lenor. Sigur am sa cumpar ca sa scap de toate grijile, spaland.

Just got home.

Still too fucked to go to bed.

Kings of Leon are still the shit.

We went to a friend's house for a mini gathering. She has a lift thing that takes you from the house, through her backyard, and to the water. It was surreal. It's like one of those ski lifts, but in her backyard! I kept thinking we were on a ghost ride at a theme park.

This photo was taken last week. I can't believe it's been a week since then. Fly by, why don't you?