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Whether or not they will actually arrest people for wearing offensive t-shirts or handing out condoms to pilgrims, I don't know. But the notion of having this kind of regulation in place really pisses me off. I thought Australia valued freedom of speech. Since when did that get thrown out the window?

If I had the power the NSW police now have, I'd probably demonstrate my anger at this stupid law, by arresting all the "annoying" pilgrims who are going to clog up our city's transport systems for the week. Hell, I'd arrest the neighbour next door as well, for "disturbing" my sleep on Sunday mornings. It sounds stupid, and that's because it bloody well is. I wish our government would spend their effort on improving our country, not making it worse.

Mengapa diriku memutuskan untuk membuat blog?

Well...sejak beberapa bulan yang lalu hingga sekarang sebenarnya banyak kejadian yang dialami oleh diriku dan bagiku itu cukup menarik dan rasanya sayang sekali kalau tidak ditulis/diceritakan beberapa kejadian menarik yang terjadi kepadaku

Akhirnya aku memutuskan untuk membuat blog. Niatnya sih dah ada beberapa bulan yang lalu. Tapi baru belakangan ini saja mood untuk memulai muncul...(Niat ada tapi mood g ada...ya..g jalan deh)

Well...sekilas tentang latar belakang pembuatan blog ini...Lalalalalalala~

though $99.99 is till ridiculously expensive for this plasticized bauble, I have to say it is (as predicted) growing on me. Mainly because of the pretty, smoky gray beads. That viscous little giraffe I could live without. Maybe at $79.00? Unlikely but stranger things have happened. I did do a complete 180 on Kate Hudson after that adorable InStyle article about her a few years ago. That was before the whole Owen Wilson thing.

But what is pride?

Well, first off, pride means different things to different people.  To some, it merely means accepting who you are and appreciating yourself as you are.  To others, it means having confidence in yourself and being able to show that to the world.  There may be other definitions; all will vary based on the perception of the speaker.  To me, it is these two things.

I have no problem with these forms of pride... but when does it get out of hand?  When does it shape shift or transgress the borders and became something much different-- something much more... ugly and condescending?

That too varies on the individual and the circumstances surrounding him or her.

In my case, being happy and proud of who you are is pride.

But... what I do not understand is... what is "Gay pride?"  How are there individuals in this world who actually can get accustomed to being gay to the point of comfort or even enjoyment?  To me, it has never been a source of happiness but rather a thing of great despair and struggle.  Only recently did I reveal my sexual identity and uncertainty with my mother and sister.  Even before I begun, I thought I'd receive more support in "coming out" but rather than gaining support, I felt opposition.  People insisted, "Well, since you're "bi" you don't need to worry about it."  Or.. "I highly recommend you don't unless you're just gay." "I really don't think you should come out... I don't see a point."

... Why?

Such strange words from people who I would think would show some kind of support...Can one not be accepted by being this way?  Must one choose?  Perhaps... they only meant well and felt I didn't have to force it on myself until I was absolutely sure but... I'll never be absolutely sure of myself-- at least, I don't think so.

At any rate, I do not understand the purpose of "gay pride", why people go around doing what they do, celebrating what they will.  It doesn't seem like "pride" to me for pride is not a collective effort but an individualistic strife.  Perhaps as individuals they all pride themselves in one common thing and this is why they commune in such a way?  I do not really know for sure... but I feel... it is not truly 'pride' they are showing but rather a kind of arrogance or fake appeal to gain attention.  I do not see people rallying themselves on for being straight, curious, or "bi" like myself.

So what function does it truly serve?  Perhaps it has lost its original intent and simply facilitates collective attention and movement-- though it would be wrong/incorrect of me to ascertain that all members who mass there do not have a sense of 'true' pride.

It's just.... I don't really see the purpose of even having a "gay pride" if there is no such thing as a "curious pride" or a "bi pride" or a "straight pride".  It just feels so... ostentatious, like a Mardi Gras festival.

I wonder... would my opinions differ were I to attend such a thing?  I do not feel like I would be comfortable in such an environment with so many noisy strangers around me-- much less gay strangers.  Don't get me wrong, it is not that they are gay which would bother me but... perhaps to be leered at... That is what frightens me or at least makes me uncomfortable...

this is an aspect of the Chaos theory, made popular in recent years in the media, romanticized in film, music and many forms of media. Simply put, it just says how every small action or event can consequentially lead to much bigger things, even though the relevance is seemingly just non-existent.

how does this impact my life? nothing. its a whole lot of bullshit. its just something someone thought up to to remind others of their actions that may have negative effects on others they don't know, or self-righteous assholes who think they actually make a difference.

why then this header? i don't exactly know the relevance. my mind digresses faster than i can focus, and my memory slips faster than women oil-wrestling in a ring.

there is no butterfly effect. you and i are the same inconsequential beings who transit in and out of this lifetime. me being in your life will not change your fate, vice versa. its just a selfish need for self-gratification. and when it is truly over, we move on...

i am just someone in passing. whatever i say, or do, if it makes sense, or feels good, its only in the zone of right here, right now. further down the lane, the past becomes stored (and in my case, maybe even not).

lost my train of thought. 1pm @ the office, alcohol-free, really isn't the best state to be writing blogs.

1. Twitter. What are you doing? What are you doing? What are you doing? Doesn't matter what I'm doing, it's all about what my friends are doing.
2. Facebook.  Cyberstalking at it's finest.
3. Yahoo! Answers.  This makes me feel like I am the smartest person on Earth.  And you collect points! Ooohh!  Points!  Something to collect!
4. Seesmic.  Video Twitter.
5. MixWit. Make my own tapes.  I'm sure you saw that blog post.
6. PopSugar. Highly addictive, you'll need a bolus of insulin.
7. Flickr. Say cheese.
8. Like.com.  Visual shopping!
9. Oddee.  It's hard to look away from the train wreck.
10. Name Generator.  In case I ever need a stripper name on the fly.
11. Hulu. This is how I got stuck on episodes of The Office.  Give me a hotel room with free wi-fi and I'm good!
12. FineTune. Pandora. Last.FM.  Music lovers know the sites.
13. Bubblewrap.  Obsessive nonetheless.
14. Brightkite. Stalker tool with pictures.
15. YouTube. Where else can you upload Money Dance videos of your boss?
16. Wikipedia. Always in the know.
17. Visual Dictionary.  Because I don't always understand all of the parts to kitchen sink plumbing.
18. Sribd. Read other people's crap for inspiration.
19. UStream.tv  Voyeurism at it's finest.
20. Crayola Digicolor. Because sometimes, the 8 year old girl in me never goes away.

So...add your own, stumble upon a few web sites...let me know what your favs are.  Afterall, until I get past the writers block (and I'm not even a writer!), this is the closest it's gonna get to a compelling blog post.